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                   I am eating in restaurant with Tegmine- I have some weird chicken dish in a brown sauce. We are discussing something, but seem to be more interested in arranging my food in a to go box.   I am putting my strange tri colored desert (kinda like a cobbler) in another section of the to-go box. I am arranging it in stripes- burgundy- a tealish color and brighter red- [dream fades here] it seems we were mad at waiter for some reason, and we left in a huff.  As we were driving out. We were stopped at the light, and we could see through the restaurant window at the table we were sitting at. There was a waiter we were mad at, I kinda hid back in my seat, but Tegmine glared at him. Then we drove to the post office (we have a post office box).  I sat in the car as Tegmine went inside.  There was a cop leaning against the outside of the building, and I saw him follow Tegmine in.  I was thinking this wasn't good and it would have been better if I had bee the one to go in. Tegmine opened our PO box, got the mail, but then the cop grabbed his arm and whirled him around. Then he yanked off his necklace- it was a string of white stones. It seems he felt it could be used as a weapon or something, but really he was just harassing us.  As soon as I saw him yank on Tegmine arm to turn him around I saw red, I got out of the car and  when into the office, Tegmine was leaving- didn't want to deal with it. I faced the cop and told him that that was assault, and if he couldn't come up with a good reason to have confiscated it, it was theft too.  I was very angry, my face was hot and my hair seemed to be trying to stay away from my face. Then I asked the cop what his name was, he said Sergeant Richards (Richardson?). then I walk outside, as does he, and he stones off the necklace and throws them at me. He seems to find this amusing- he is smiling. I catch a few of the stones in the air- thinking to keep them as evidence.  A few hit me and sting a little.  I am pissed off in the car and start thinking of the letter I am going to write his boss. I have the wording down, and try to write it in my planer but its too dark and the movement of the car prevents me.  We go to my mother and fathers house- its a trailer with a small wooden round table. I am trying to write my letter but I want a really sharp pencil. There are other activities going on, keeps interrupting me.  My mother had gotten me some gum that was chocolate mint, but she couldn't find it. She asks my brother Mike if she can give me his, thinking he doesn't like, but he says that he does. I tell mom not to worry about it.  She has some sort of cigarette flavored gum for herself.  Ick.  I keep thinking of getting a sharp pencil, and a few times I offer to go to the store when others around me express a need for something. At one point I get up and go to the freezer. Uncle Jack is over there. There is a huge freezer, and its open. Inside is my mother in her wedding dress, frozen.  I remember the ice crystals on her cheeks. I open her mouth and it is filled with ice. I seem to think it is frozen milk, and grab a spoon and take a scoop from her mouth.  It's actually rather tasteless, but definitely not pleasant. (I think this might have been a wax sculpture of my mom in the freezer from her wedding).
         Dream changes- now I alone on some sort of campus type area- I am riding in a little people mover car looking for track exit so I can get to track practice. There are some other people in there with me, but none look like track people, so I can't just watch to see where other track people get off. I miss the exit, and have to ride all the way back around campus.  The dreams shifts; I am still on the people mover but I am now with Carrie Beaton and another girl. It seems that we are all getting married, there is some sort of package deal on it and lots of girls are getting married. The people mover thingy is taking us down bride lane- where we look at potential businesses like salons, nail stores, and places that help brides get dress and ready for the wedding.  Then we reach the end of the lane, most the girls have gotten off and chosen a business, but we haven't. Everything is so expensive. We pass a McDonalds that has a testimonial on a banner outside that had a picture of a bride and said something like "McDonalds got us a huge discount!" we get off the tram at the end of the tracks, the other girls are depressed that they haven't found anything. But I tell them we don't need any help- we can get in our dresses ourselves. And if they needed any bows tied, I'm great at that, and I'll help them. They said I shouldn't have to help other get ready on our wedding, but I just scoff at that. 
        Then we are walking back to our rooms (kinda like a dorm/apartment setup) We are in our dresses- its me, Khara and a girl who looks like Courtney Cox- well I'm in my dress anyways-  It is short sleeved, fitted bodice with a gently flared skirt (the dress I got for the Sims)  we are walking back to the rooms. On the way there we pass another wedding in progress. It with a big girl (Jennifer maybe?) and on the edge of a grassy area in front of some white barked trees on the other side of the trees the ground drops off for a ways- greatly quite a pretty effect. It looks like we are in the plain of the river- full of vegetation.  I start thinking about how odd it is that I am getting married. It's so quick. I wonder if I'm doing the right thing. Then I get a sharp mental pain when I think on the fact my mother wont be there- it was too last minute.  We are approaching wooden and earth stairs, I run into the guy who was a special ed kid I knew in elementary school- I always though he liked me, his name is Josh/Jeremy/Jarred/ can't quite remember. He checks me out in my wedding dress- odd situation.  He seems disappointed in a suave way that I am no longer available. We go up the wood/earth stairs and reach a woody area with picnic tables and see Levi Gilbert, David Ward, Josh Hoover and some other guys I knew in elementary school- Levi regards me as some warrior woman- someone to be reckoned with- someone to give respect. Levi is there with his arch enemy - who are having like a party- The enemy has red hair (come to think of it I think he might have been Ryan Thompson) and is standing against the rail next to the stairs that I just came up. I stand, in my white wedding dress, very convenient and assured- I wave to him when we are introduced. He looks at me admiring- said something like "so this is the Morgan/woman I've been hearing about" but he's not looking at me as a warrior, but as a woman. I hold my head up high, and turn back to my destination. Khara grabs my hand- and the guys make some sort of gay crack/reference.  Khara pulls me along and we reach our trailer/apartment.  I'm in my dress, but the Courtney girl is not, she is putting blue Nads on her legs, I hear her say ouch.  The stuff is too cold she says, and its not spreading. Indeed she has what looks like a huge blue cocoon around her calf.  Khara comes out of the back, she is wearing a half top and a little skirt that is really tight- a sarong, tied on the left side with the end widening and cut into a flower shape, it is tan. The phone rings and Khara answers it- She tells the person on the other line "oh, but I need you to reassure me, to get me through this" I tell Khara not to make it too long, I want to use the phone. (I want to call my mother and my family, I wish they could be there, I can't remember if I had told every one that I was getting married.  Khara tells Jeremy she will talk to him in an hour.  She steps on fire works that she is planning on using in her wedding, they go off and Jeremy wonders what the racket is. I feel bad for kicking
Khara off the phone, especially when I find out it was Jeremy. It's the second time I'd done that today, but she does not appear offended. I start to think about calling mom, then I wake up.


  

2-17-02 Violence, A Wedding, and Khara (of course!)